I have made it this far, I am speechless. It is amazing how I feel physically and mentally after not drinking and the not smoking goes without saying. Some highs and lows since last blog. Last Wednesay I had a sunspot under my eye surgically removed, turns out it was melanoma, but in saying that they got it all and I don’t more surgery or chemotherapy or anything, what a relief. I have started working on my pump up training music weekly blog to download. If you are interested in listening to it I have attached the link to the bottom of this post, great for running. I am most way through [...]

Today is the first day of my second HSM. I competed my first HSM late last year with my husband and found it suprisingly easy to do. We were very social throughout the time and had many nights out with friends and even hosted a few dinner parties. We had no trouble staying completely sober throughout the entire world cup and were very proud of ourselves at the end of it all. I assumed that after the three months were up that I would find it much easier to only have a few drinks at the weekends but that wasn’t the case, I was straight back into my old ways of having a few glasses of wine [...]

“Venus or Mars, Venus-Venus or Mars, King of the stars”! If you get a chance, listen to Dr. Don Don, King of the stars and then picture me bouncing around the office smiling while listening to it. What a joke “implanon” is! Yesterday I got the implant removed and already I feel 100 percent better. I feel happier, the sort of happiness I was used to feeling over the past couple of months because there is absolutely nothing wrong with my life! But since I had that shit of a thing put in my arm, I’ve been sad, negative, unmotivated and increasingly dizzy. Those of y [...]

I just started off tired today. Gave 2 lessons this morning and then went back to bed and snoozed for 3/4 hour. Got up to do my walk and it was raining. I only walked long enough for Buster to have a sniff around and got back in the car. Normally this doesn’t worry me because I have a raincoat and don’t mind getting wet but today I just feel different. I am either very tired and need a rest or I have a fit of the blues. In the past the red wine would help to numb any feelings like this but that is not an option anymore for me. Sooooo I am just going to go and have another snooze. I [...]

Howdo you decide that your work is not right/ is rightfor you? How do you distinguish between your work being bad for your wellbeing and growth or just not liking some of the job roles? Normally I’d just smoke extra cigarettes or have an extra vodka or two andhide all the questions and focus on the security of being employed. Nice furrrry blanket. But now I’m sober I have to facethe questions… especially the social isolation my job involves. I’m considering that my job doesnt nourish me. It is well paid, but Im very isolated working with one 65 year old conservative mal [...]

Well a few hours ago I was really undecided about having a drink on my birthday! I did have a few beers with my pizza.I really enjoyed it.Had my family n a great laugh,I nearly went back to mates but my husband talked me out of it,in a good way! He has known me for 26 yrs so knows what im like and knows i would do my head in if i drank more! Got home and got in dressing gown and cuddled zack my dog,relieved and pleased.Hope everyone on H.S.M.is having a lovely evening. [...]

Well ive been chatting and thinking about the booze and decided to have a drink on certain occasions,but certainly more than once a month! Ive had one night out in 4 months,so im gonna give it a go! If it goes pear shape i will be straight back! Thanx for all your good wishes and good luck whatever your journey.x [...]

sooo… I haven’t blogged in a while, and during that time, I’ve “fallen off the wagon”. But I’m totally okay with it. I turned 29 on Sunday, so my boyfriend and a dear friend and I went down to Flinders so I could be by the sea, breathe clean air and not be trapped in suburbia. The weekend was perfect. I got to speak to my parents, who popped out of the jungle in Papua New Guinea to call my younger sister and I on our birthdays, I got four ocean swims in, had a spectacular fish burger, went for a great walk, and got the most thoughtful present from my boyfrie [...]

Well I completed my three months easily enough (way back in November of 2011) now I think Ill do it again – well at least until I run my full triathlon March 12. It will leave me focused and keep me on track for beating my PB (personal best) – it’s always asier to get up at 5am for a run – with a clear head [...]

Last night I really wanted a drink(felt kinda thirsty for one). Didnt. Feel great today on day 5 of HSM and my mind is buzzing from sleep, good food and even better sober conversations with all my friends. Happy and looking forward to getting out of London for the weekend and enjoying a bit of countryside… I feel like im slightly cheating by having my first alcohol free weekend out of London? I know the real test is going to gigs or out for a meal in my normal haunts. Any tips for coping with those kinds of evenings? [...]